Friendships

I know that I posted something about friendships in the past – but this one is positive, I promise.

So my best friend, Arran, (apart from my boyfriend, because he’s like my best friend too) lives in a different state, and we used to work together. We worked together, then lived together, then had a falling out – because it happens.

I think it took us a year to really reconnect again, and we were hanging out and all was well, and then life took ahold of us. I wasn’t really able to talk to him again until after he moved into a different state. And the more I think about it, the more I feel like it was the right time for us to be rekindling our friendship.

I wish that we did it sooner, but I think we both needed each other at the precise time, and thus we became better friends for it. We were both “hurting” from other relationships that have scorned us, and therefore when we started talking again through facebook, everything started to make sense.

Having a best friend that is essentially your sibling is rare – in fact, I’ve always just hung on to people because I want to have that relationship. I’ve made mistakes and I’ve found some really horrid people along the way who recognized this, and thus taken advantage of my situation. But, I’m really thankful to have him, and I tell him that I love him all the time.

I wish that everyone would have a best friend that is as wonderful and understanding as he is, even though we can be a bit of an asshole to others at times. You don’t need to have a friend that’s an asshole per say but if it makes life fun and keeps you out of trouble, then who cares?

As always, wishing all of you readers well,

Kay

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Generic Goals

Not to sound uber sarcastic about the title, but every year people send out their resolutions, and while I do have goals that I want to continue this new year of 2017, I don’t want to post something and then have someone else remind me (mostly here in person, fyi) that I didn’t follow through with them.

One thing that I do, is that I keep a notepad app on my phone and I write down things that I am working on so I can continue to do what I think is best for me. Then I can also better myself along the way. It’s something that I look at when I start to slowly panic about the future, and as long as I have the space on my phone, it’s a great little tidbit to help me.

I hope to continue my goals throughout the new year, and I hope to continue to post about things that happen in my life so that I can be positive. But for my goals for the new year (they are not in any particular order):

  • Continue weight loss. This one is a given, I lost 14.6 pounds in the last year, and that’s over 2 months and that makes me so thrilled. In 2 months, I made something possible, such as losing weight.
  • Remain positive. I know that it’s easier said than done, but I have realized that the more I stay positive, the less my depression/anxiety hinder me.
  • Continue blogging. This has been life changing for me, because I know now that people are around me that care, and they aren’t “mean people on the internet”.
  • Apply for graduate school. I want to start by next August. Which means it’s time that I get my life in order, and I know that I can do it. I know that it may stress me out, but it’s completely doable.
  • Have a great year. And just in general, I’m ready for the year to whiz by – and that everything goes smoothly. Life is difficult and issues arise, but I want to remember all great things, and just enjoy everything.

I know that it’s generic. But as I’ve gotten older, I’ve realized that it doesn’t matter with what I have, as long as I’m happy. Yes, sometimes I want materialistic goods – because who doesn’t? (my weakness is makeup and clothes, though)

Boyfriend and I may argue, but as long as we have each other, I know that I’ll be happy. I may lose my job, but I have the skills to overcome anything. I can work anywhere, and I can be great at whatever I do. I have learned this about myself, and because of that, I welcome 2017.

Kay x

Happy New Year!

Sorry for lack of posting! But between the week before Christmas, and New Years I’ve been so busy.

As you may have known, I went home for some time before Christmas which was unexpected, but it was good to be home. But while I was home, I got really sick.

To the point where I missed my original flight home and I stayed for an extra couple days just to get to the point where I could actually walk around and function.

I got home (to Oklahoma) and I had to deal with some stressful situations, and after just relaxing for a bit (and getting a cold, which has been terrible after the stomach bug that I had) I started prepping for the new year.

So mostly, I want to fill this blog in on what happened, so I set some time over tomorrow to blog about some things and then set them up over time.

I just wanted to apologize to everyone if they were wondering what happened.

Also, in the last 2 weeks, I’ve lost a total of 13 pounds, so I’m excited about that.

And I’ve been keeping it off, as well.

So,

Happy New Year everyone (I am aware it’s tomorrow) and I hope to be posting more and more!

Giving & Taking

I’m sure all of you have seen an image like this before, or this image. And while, once again, it’s not mine, it’s pretty symbolic for me right at this moment in my life.

I’m thankful for the overnight work because it allows me to really think about what I want. I can see my career going in more than one path, and that’s more than okay.

But, it’s also made me think about how I always put what I want on hold. It doesn’t matter what it is, but I always tend to give up my time or my energy for people who just take, take, take.

Don’t get me wrong, I think it is absolutely fundamental for everyone to help out. If you help out someone in your life, you’re already being so much of a help, it’s unexpressionable. (Also, I’m sure that’s not a word, but oh well)

The moment you start to feel your life drain away, it becomes a problem.

For example,

I’ve been helping out a family going through a divorce this last semester. After many conversations with my boyfriend and my friends (who tend to notice that I’m overworking myself faster than I can) I’ve decided that it’s time to stop.

And the more I consider it, the more I realize that I’m 24 turning 25 in June. I have essentially a year and half left (less than that technically) where I lose health insurance. And, I need a full time job, because I would be able to support myself more. I would be able to actually save money. I have two degrees, and I know that if I wanted to (which I do) I could totally go out in the work force and make more money.

And another issue is that I’m too comfortable, it’s time that I essentially grow up, and take the next step.

There is nothing wrong with being a babysitter forever.

But, I no longer can spend time with my boyfriend, who I live with, because now I’m involved in another family. It’s time I stop living for others, and I live for myself.

However, I have yet to tell the family because I am traveling over the weekend (this is a queued post) and her last final (since she is still getting her bachelor’s degree) is on Thursday. I feel like we need to talk face to face, but I’m extremely nervous about the entire situation.

But that is literally for an entire other post.

More to come,

Kay

Overnights

It’s dead week and finals week at the university that I work at, so naturally we have decided to open the library for 24 hours – five days a week. So naturally, I told my boss that I can work as many as she would need me to.

Which is equivalent to me working Tuesday-Friday this week from 2am – 7:30am.

I’m not overly excited, but I also know that it’ll be a good bonus check at the end of the day. So, I’m happy to do it.

Next week, I’ll only be working 2 weeks unless my bosses want me to work more, because sometimes it’s easier for them to not work as much.

Well, hopefully I won’t be too bored.

I’ve recently purchased the Harry Potter extended movies through my Amazon Prime account. So I have something to watch, while I’m staying up, and Harry Potter tends to keep me pretty awake, regardless.

Anyways, this post is queued, so hope everyone is having a fantastic week thus far!

This was the only image that seemed somewhat positive, other than me putting alcohol into my orange juice in the morning. Ha

Kay

Graduate School

So, I recently made the decision to continue my education by continuing on to graduate school – and I’m not sure if I will regret this decision while I am doing it, but nevertheless, I think that I should continue my education.

I’m mainly deciding on continuing my education, because it would be a waste to society (in my opinion) if I did not.

At the age of 14, my family and I moved overseas to live in Kyiv, Ukraine. I lived there for 3 years, and now that it’s been 10 years since we made the move, I am still forever thankful for the decision that my parents made to do this.

Of course, at the time, I was angry because I was a teenager and didn’t understand the impact that it would make on my life. But now that it’s been 10 years, I understand how important it is to travel, and to make general good decisions -not exactly the point I’m trying to make in this post, but.

So, with my degree in General Sociology, I think it is important for me to continue on, because not only could I learn so much information but I think that I could contribute more to society (whether it wants me to or not).

Now, I start studying for the GRE, since my GPA was pretty low considering that in my first year of college, I didn’t care one bit. I suffered my entire degree for it, but I’m thankful to have graduated and now I can continue on to my life and whatever else it brings.

Thanks!

Kay

Staying Busy

One of the main issues that I have with my job, is that it can be hard for me is staying busy. For the full amount of time that I’m working, because depending on the time of year I have stuff I need to do.

Also, I should point out, that I work 2 part time jobs, one at a university library and one as a part-time nanny. Which, nanny-ing I don’t mind, but I would rather find a more stable job so I can actually bring home money and be able to do the things that I want to do.

Anyways, so at the library that I work at, I work three days a week: Saturday, Sunday, and Monday. And I’m already doing all of my work responsibilities, so that’s not entirely what I’m referring to.

My issue, is that after I graduated, I obviously have no more homework to do, so I find other ways to occupy my time. This, running a blog, is included because it helps me clear my head, so I can move on and potentially digest whatever I’ve been thinking about.

So today, I have restocked all the materials that I need to at work, I have spent some time planning efficiently, and I have set aside things and topics that I want to post about here on Ambivertedd.

(I am writing this post on 12/3 even though this will post 12/4, fyi)

Nevertheless, because I want to start graduate school in the fall of next year, I think it’s beneficial if I start looking for a full time job so I can ensure that I can make money as I continue my education. (Look for a post about this topic as well)

I think it’s beneficial to break the topics up instead of throwing down information all at once. Therefore, you’re not overloaded with information.

Thanks again,

Kay