Positivity Month

I know that I mentioned it here, but I thought that I would give some examples on how I’m trying to write down not only common sense, but things that I think people need to hear.


Also as a PSA – my boyfriend and I did not break up, but I still think that it’s important that these words are expressed.


I hope that these words will help us over time. Also, if you noticed I changed the tag on the right bottom to my instagram name as well.


Just so people could find me. I’m doing it for an entire month, so I should be done by March 3rd (30 ish days) but maybe I’ll do it for longer. It’s definitely making me more chill if that makes any sense.


Hope you like them!!



“You’re so real”

I have heard that phrase in my life way too many times.

Don’t get me wrong, I actually like hearing it, but it also gets old so fast. Do you have people in your life that are not real? That are fake and don’t really get it? If so, you may need to let them go, or how about you don’t tell me that I’m “so real” because believe me, I get it.

Things that I strive for, is to in fact, be real. I literally see no point in being fake to people. You don’t like them? Let them know. (you can be nice about it, you don’t need to be telling people off for no reason) You don’t want to do something? Let people know. You are irritated about something? Say something.

However, this normally happens when I’m overloaded with stress, or I’m just comfortable in my setting. In past posts, you know (because I have informed you) that I’m not always cool under pressure. My anxiety takes off and I’m freaking out – which is normal. Especially today, in our society.

Dealing with this phrase a lot, I’ve come to accept it, and as I’ve stated, I like hearing it. I just also wish that it could become a norm that people were this way. I shouldn’t have to be the only one who is going to tell it to you as it is. Not trying to be extra mean in this post, but others should never have to deal with people who aren’t who they claim to be.

For now, I am content with people telling me that they love my personality.




I know that I posted something about friendships in the past – but this one is positive, I promise.

So my best friend, Arran, (apart from my boyfriend, because he’s like my best friend too) lives in a different state, and we used to work together. We worked together, then lived together, then had a falling out – because it happens.

I think it took us a year to really reconnect again, and we were hanging out and all was well, and then life took ahold of us. I wasn’t really able to talk to him again until after he moved into a different state. And the more I think about it, the more I feel like it was the right time for us to be rekindling our friendship.

I wish that we did it sooner, but I think we both needed each other at the precise time, and thus we became better friends for it. We were both “hurting” from other relationships that have scorned us, and therefore when we started talking again through facebook, everything started to make sense.

Having a best friend that is essentially your sibling is rare – in fact, I’ve always just hung on to people because I want to have that relationship. I’ve made mistakes and I’ve found some really horrid people along the way who recognized this, and thus taken advantage of my situation. But, I’m really thankful to have him, and I tell him that I love him all the time.

I wish that everyone would have a best friend that is as wonderful and understanding as he is, even though we can be a bit of an asshole to others at times. You don’t need to have a friend that’s an asshole per say┬ábut if it makes life fun and keeps you out of trouble, then who cares?

As always, wishing all of you readers well,


Pulling Off the Band-Aid

So, as I mentioned in my previous post (below and some posts from earlier) the best way of facing something is by mustering up your courage and ripping off that band aid as fast as you could.

(I originally meant to post this before I went on my trip on the 15th, so sorry that this is essentially a half-month late.)

I had been dealing with some people in my life that weren’t exactly good for me – as in I’d been taking a lot of their issues and combining it with my own. They were getting to the point where they were essentially toxic, but because I saw them frequently, I couldn’t get rid of them. And, I didn’t really know how to.

When I went home this last time, I was very, very ill. And while I did actually stress myself out to the point that I was ill, (if you remember my luggage fiasco and how it heightened my anxiety – yeah great times) I was fairly certain that I caught something.

So, I’m at home and stressing out because of everything going on and I’m too ill to return home on time, and my sleep schedule is getting all wacked out. As in, I’m sleeping at 3pm and waking up around 2 am, completely. And my mom was telling me that I told her that I would just continue sleeping it off.

Which is fine, but I wish that my sleepy self would wake up so that I could spend some time with her. However, I was sick, so it’s okay. It’s just one of those things that I think about when I’m home, “you could have spent more time with everyone“.

That’s another topic for later.

But I came home and I realized that I need to face my fears and just swipe that stupid Band-Aid that didn’t need to be there in the first place, and I did it. It just took enough stress for it to affect my body (I lost 12 pounds that week according to Weight Watchers) and for me to finally tell my parents what has been going on and just “come clean” with everything.

My advice to you, is when you start recognizing these signs, just deal with it. I know it’s hard to actually follow through with that advice, but it’s really important if you do. Not only will you create a better environment for yourself, but you will also not be stressed out to the point of illness.

Thanks as always, and happy New Year.


Happy New Year!

Sorry for lack of posting! But between the week before Christmas, and New Years I’ve been so busy.

As you may have known, I went home for some time before Christmas which was unexpected, but it was good to be home. But while I was home, I got really sick.

To the point where I missed my original flight home and I stayed for an extra couple days just to get to the point where I could actually walk around and function.

I got home (to Oklahoma) and I had to deal with some stressful situations, and after just relaxing for a bit (and getting a cold, which has been terrible after the stomach bug that I had) I started prepping for the new year.

So mostly, I want to fill this blog in on what happened, so I set some time over tomorrow to blog about some things and then set them up over time.

I just wanted to apologize to everyone if they were wondering what happened.

Also, in the last 2 weeks, I’ve lost a total of 13 pounds, so I’m excited about that.

And I’ve been keeping it off, as well.


Happy New Year everyone (I am aware it’s tomorrow) and I hope to be posting more and more!

Reuniting with People

While I sometimes despise Facebook, and let me be completely honest, because I completely do at times, I love that I can reconnect with people.

Though, to be honest as I’ve mentioned that I have a horrid memory I like reconnecting with people but then they sometimes bring up “hey do you remember this?” Uh, no obviously not, thank you for ruining it for me.

So I “ran into” someone that I haven’t seen for years. And I would like to mention now, that most of my friends happen to be men, just because while I do have friends that are female, it can be so difficult always being friends with them. Either I get stabbed in the back, or something terrible happens. So yeah, not too crazy on that. (I do have Christine and Amber though, let’s not forget).

I would like to say that it’s been almost eight years, if not eight. And he comments on my posts every once in awhile, and I don’t expect us to become best friends instantly again, but it’s nice that people are still thinking positively of me.

I would also like to say that is something that I wish on everyone. I always hope that there is someone that will think about you in a positive way, because there is nothing better than that.

I hope that while I’m on my trip I can stop by and we can just meet up (since he lives in New York City) and I’m also honestly horrid at keeping in touch with people because I do live in the Midwest and it’s not like we can go get a coffee all the time. (Holy crap, talk about a long sentence)

Hope everything is going well with you, if you decided to stop by, and have a happy Thanksgiving week!


Happy November!

So it’s officially November now, so happy Thanksgiving month!

I would post about all the things I’m thankful for per day, but I think it gets old pretty quickly. Regardless, I may be posting about some things that I am thankful for throughout the month, just because it’s nice to have a little extra positivity.

A crazy thing happened to me today, about 3 years ago I lost my keys at my friends house – strangest thing ever. I had my keys when I entered her house, and then I couldn’t find them.

Was late to work, and my boss told me that I was a (insert swear here) liar, and I had to go with my spare keys, which is what I’ve been doing all this time. But it makes me so paranoid in case I lost the keys I’ve been using, you know?

I even have locked them in my car multiple times and my car insurance didn’t cover that, which seems like you wouldn’t need it when you sign up for it, but you do. Because it’ll cost you $50-150 depending on when you locked it in and where you’re located…believe me I’ve spent some money on it too.

Anyways, my friend found my keys! They were literally in the stuffing of her couch, and that’s why I couldn’t find them. I actually enlisted my boyfriend at the time to help ransack the house and nothing

It’s nice to have such good news at the beginning of the month – kind of like proof that anything can happen.

Also, I dressed up for Halloween, not like costume-dressing, but I wore a dress to work, so that’s something.

I’ll have to post about that next and what happened over the weekend.

Hope you guys enjoy November! (I know I will! Less than 3 weeks before I travel to New York)