Keto and Ketchup

Ketchup – as in let’s catch up!

Sorry I’ve been gone, it’s been busy where I’ve been. In the last week, I’ve started the Ketogenic diet, and I’ve dropped about 8 pounds, I’m sure it’s just water weight but it’s weight that I haven’t been able to lose before, so there’s that. I’m dangerously close to a goal weight and I’m happy about that.

I’m still doing positivity posts and I think I’ve been doing those for about 2 months now, which is awesome. Depending on the post ~40 people like it, which means 40 people see what I’m writing out, and I think that’s wonderful in itself.

I’ve been working a lot more, which means actual work instead of down-time. But I’ve also managed to hit level 122 on a bubble game that I started 2 weeks ago on facebook – so I’ve had more time, but it’s easier to be on facebook so I can chat with my fellow library people.

I’m now actively searching for a full time job in the last month, and I was offered a position at AFLAC which I turned down, only because it was difficult to sign on to a job where I would be a 1099 instead of a W2, but I told them to contact me in a couple of years, because I do think I would be excellent for that kind of job. I love helping people, and I know how to tie an emotional connection to something to sell, so I am good at selling things (that is, if I think it’s worth it).

For this week, I have to work a lot extra for work (bleh), and I have a wedding to go to – they were our former roommates, but I was going to go to the bachelorette party, but have to work, because no one else seems to want to come in. Actually, a whole bunch of people took off for that day, and then my boss was like ‘yeah come in’ and I’ve been over a lot on hours, but it’s frustrating since I can only work so much.

I hope everything is well for everyone who reads this, if anyone wants to read this, because I’ve been gone, and I’m going to try to be more active. I have some stuff coming up this month and next, but that’s what makes life so exciting, right?

Thanks,

Kay

Lent

So for those who celebrate lent – it’s coming.

I was brought up in the church – I attended Catholic schools for most of my life (10+ years so definitely most of my life) and I can also say that is one way for a child who turned into an adult to break away and “discover” other means of religion.

I’m practically agnostic/deist but still on the edge, and not making any means to commit to another anytime soon. Yes, it’s because I’m lazy and I’ll be 25 in June so I’m still unsure about everything religion. There’s too much pressure on society’s views on it anyways.

So, one of my closest friends is going through the process of becoming a Catholic. And while I’m excited for him, it really puts things in perspectives on how the Church is set up – and as emotional support I blindly said that I would participate in Lent with him.

Yay.

So, instead of giving something up, I’m going to do what I did in December (Runcember) and work out more. I pretty much did a 5K every day of December, and while I do have a 5K that I’m walking for Weight Watchers, I’ll be working out every day of March. Except for Sunday’s because I work long hours on that day, and you’re supposed to be taking a break once a week anyways.

Lucky for me, I prefer Tuna to anything, so the No Meat on Friday’s won’t be challenging. We’ll see how it works out, I have everything written in my planner just to make sure. It’s actually a lot of fun to be organized.

Kay

I got up in time!!

I got up in time to head to Weight Watchers this morning – which in hindsight isn’t that difficult, but when you get home around 3:15 and then your boyfriend decides to keep you awake so you only have maybe 4 hours of sleep, it was challenging.

But I knew that if I went I could be back on track.

And that’s the case. It was great seeing everyone since it’s been a couple of weeks, it puts me back on track. Which is what I feel like I needed anyways.

It’s honestly a great experience to go back to a community that you haven’t taken part in in awhile, and I gained 3.8 pounds, but considering that it could be so much higher, I’m not terribly upset.

I think it will motivate me to become better this coming week, especially with my Lent Goals that I will be starting at the beginning of next month.

I can’t believe that it’s coming up, in all honesty.

Thanks!

Kay

Positivity Month

I know that I mentioned it here, but I thought that I would give some examples on how I’m trying to write down not only common sense, but things that I think people need to hear.

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Also as a PSA – my boyfriend and I did not break up, but I still think that it’s important that these words are expressed.

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I hope that these words will help us over time. Also, if you noticed I changed the tag on the right bottom to my instagram name as well.

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Just so people could find me. I’m doing it for an entire month, so I should be done by March 3rd (30 ish days) but maybe I’ll do it for longer. It’s definitely making me more chill if that makes any sense.

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Hope you like them!!

Kay

Sabotage

Don’t sabotage people, it doesn’t end well, I’m not saying from personal experience. However, being on the end of sabotage is infuriating and destructive.

Not only are you throwing away your self-worth, but you’re also becoming a person of immaturity, and evilness, essentially.

I recently found out that a job that I applied for in August was sabotaged by someone I know, because they essentially didn’t want me to move on and be happy.

A couple things about that.

  1. Seriously, not cool. I was going to swear, but I’m trying not to on this blog. I don’t think people want the F word floating around on their feed.
  2. Why? I couldn’t even get a straight answer about it, it’s so infuriating and pretty much disgusting that someone would go to this level.
  3. I can’t even. Mind you I’m typing this after having digested this for a bit, but I’m angry, hurt, betrayed, and shocked. Maybe appalled is the correct word.

It almost makes me want to do something back, but I know that if I just cut the person out, I’ll be better off. I am also aware that I am taking a higher road out of this, and that is pretty mature for me, right about now, but also, I just don’t want to be in that level of toxicity.

I’m so done. It’s 2017 – let’s move on with our lives, and I’ll just cut you out. Nothing says “Bye” more than someone just cutting you out, and still being happy without you.

Essentially – I’m not going to sink to the level you tried to throw me on, I’m better than that. But a word, if I may, if something like this happens to you, no judgement from me if you want to be the mad human being and doing something in return.

But, for now, I don’t even want to be in the same room with this person. Talk about burning the bridge down and then turning around saying “I didn’t think that you would find out“.

I sincerely hope that there are better people in this world that wouldn’t ever do this to other people. I hope this is just a group of angry, hurt, and evil people who will not spread this around.

Sorry if this isn’t more of a vent-post. I just needed to express that there are better options, and please don’t be that person trying to sabotage others, because others may not be as clean and nice about it as me.

Thanks,

Kay

“You’re so real”

I have heard that phrase in my life way too many times.

Don’t get me wrong, I actually like hearing it, but it also gets old so fast. Do you have people in your life that are not real? That are fake and don’t really get it? If so, you may need to let them go, or how about you don’t tell me that I’m “so real” because believe me, I get it.

Things that I strive for, is to in fact, be real. I literally see no point in being fake to people. You don’t like them? Let them know. (you can be nice about it, you don’t need to be telling people off for no reason) You don’t want to do something? Let people know. You are irritated about something? Say something.

However, this normally happens when I’m overloaded with stress, or I’m just comfortable in my setting. In past posts, you know (because I have informed you) that I’m not always cool under pressure. My anxiety takes off and I’m freaking out – which is normal. Especially today, in our society.

Dealing with this phrase a lot, I’ve come to accept it, and as I’ve stated, I like hearing it. I just also wish that it could become a norm that people were this way. I shouldn’t have to be the only one who is going to tell it to you as it is. Not trying to be extra mean in this post, but others should never have to deal with people who aren’t who they claim to be.

For now, I am content with people telling me that they love my personality.

Thanks,

Kay

Friendships

I know that I posted something about friendships in the past – but this one is positive, I promise.

So my best friend, Arran, (apart from my boyfriend, because he’s like my best friend too) lives in a different state, and we used to work together. We worked together, then lived together, then had a falling out – because it happens.

I think it took us a year to really reconnect again, and we were hanging out and all was well, and then life took ahold of us. I wasn’t really able to talk to him again until after he moved into a different state. And the more I think about it, the more I feel like it was the right time for us to be rekindling our friendship.

I wish that we did it sooner, but I think we both needed each other at the precise time, and thus we became better friends for it. We were both “hurting” from other relationships that have scorned us, and therefore when we started talking again through facebook, everything started to make sense.

Having a best friend that is essentially your sibling is rare – in fact, I’ve always just hung on to people because I want to have that relationship. I’ve made mistakes and I’ve found some really horrid people along the way who recognized this, and thus taken advantage of my situation. But, I’m really thankful to have him, and I tell him that I love him all the time.

I wish that everyone would have a best friend that is as wonderful and understanding as he is, even though we can be a bit of an asshole to others at times. You don’t need to have a friend that’s an asshole per say but if it makes life fun and keeps you out of trouble, then who cares?

As always, wishing all of you readers well,

Kay