Thanksgiving Vacation

I almost forgot!

Thanksgiving this year was actually pretty decent, considering that it wasn’t overly stressful.

Normally my mother would consistently give me the “evil” eye look if I was consuming too much, and the fact that I didn’t receive it must have meant that I was doing well. Actually, I know that I was because I consciously felt like I was reaching my goals.

On top of that, I wanted to workout every day, but I started bonding more with my dog, Pepper, more than ever before. I would take her out to the trail near my parent’s house and the trail is 1.56 miles on way, and thus, I would do it twice. (1.56 x 2 = 3.12)

Essentially, I was doing a 5K a day, which helped me with my #runcember goal for December. At first, it was a total pain doing that much a day, but then as the week moved on, not only did it become easier, but it was also something that I knew that I could continue when I came back home.

We actually currently have a cat, but a friend of ours is looking to re-home their dog, so if our cat would get along with the dog, I’m sure that I would be more motivated to work out as often.

I believe with the dog, I was more motivated to exercise because I didn’t want to let down the dog, because I always want to make sure that the dog is happy – not necessarily over myself, but I would like the dog to be happy while I’m happy.

But overall, I was so happy to see my family and some of my extended family as well. It made me realize how important it is to spend time with my loved ones.

Thanks for reading, as always,



Happy December!

Wow guys, it’s almost the end of the year, and I’m doing a “fun” fitness challenge to commemorate me meeting my goals, despite the fact that I started actually trying to be healthy last month.

I’ve lost a total of six pounds, and maintained my weight.

So, I’m doing the #runcember challenge, where you run anywhere from a mile plus a day, and I want to try to do at least a 5K a day, where I can. (So 5Ks Tuesday through Friday and a mile Saturday through Mondays, since I work longer shifts those three days)

I know that even if I start small, that I can do it.

And on the 1st, which was yesterday, I did 3.1 miles, and it wasn’t too awful in the beginning.

In fact, the first 1.5 miles was fine, but then I started to get tired, and I started looking down at my fitbit more, because of the level of exhaustion that I was at. And while it was good that I was getting tired, I didn’t realize how exhausted I was until I was back home in my apartment.

You know that level of sweatiness that you get when you finally relax and then it all sticks to you?

Yes, it’s disgusting. But it’s also rewarding.

While it may be a ridiculous challenge, I still think that it’s possible for me to reach this goal, because while it may be hard, if I can do it, I think I can be at a closer goal for me.

Cardio sucks, but I want to be able to get to that point that where I sign up for a 5K challenge, I’m not nervous about it, in fact, I want to get to that point where I’m thinking “Yeah I’m ready for this!”

So, there you go. I’ll be updating you as time goes on, but I’ll be excited to focus on finishing it.



First Progress

So my first weigh-in at my local WW meeting was Tuesday, and it was really exciting for me!

I lost 6.2 pounds for my first weigh-in.

The day itself went really well, except that I woke up with a split lip, and I felt like it disfigured my face for awhile. It turns out, instead of panicking over something and trying your absolute hardest to make it go away, it’s better if you just let things run it’s full course.

Nevertheless, I’m really happy with my weight loss, because if anything, I think that it showed me that if I mentally commit to anything, I can just try.

Which is what I learned that week, that while it was a pain for me to get up every day and work out, I still did it. I tried hard, and while I did slip up a bit at the end, at least I got up and faced the day, which is what I wanted to see if I could do.

And I can.

Because I can do anything if I set my mind towards it, and if that doesn’t encourage you to try, than I don’t know how else to help. Trying means that you’re working towards it.



New Music

One of my favorite things to do, is to look for new music.

But not everyday, because it can take me a couple of weeks to get “tired” of listening to that “new” song, (because it’s new to me). I’m also fairly certain that I drive my other half crazy with the amount playlists that I have on my Spotify account (since he uses mine) because one day my playlist will have 180 songs, and then the next it’s increased to 260.

Now that I think of it, he’s never asked me, but maybe it’s just a fleeting thought when he opens the app on his phone.

Now that I’ve gone through the habit of working out five days a week – to literally restart my body and not to overly freak it out, but I want to lose weight and I can do it five days a week. (I did it four times this week though) I have been attempting to put together a workout playlist, one that will get me pumped.

Songs that are included:

Carrie – Shiny Toy Guns
In My Blood –
The Veronicas
Woman Woman – AWOLNATION (As well as Bad Wolf and Kill Your Heroes)
Nightlight –
Silversun Pickups
Psycho –
Kyoto –

Yeah, an electic taste in music, I know.

But I love electronic/dance/edm music as well as alternative and anything that I grew up with (I’m an early nineties’ kid)

Anything that you would suggest for songs to listen to? Honestly if I could put up my Spotify likes, I would, because it makes for easier conversation.



Caloric Intake

So last week, (Thursday) my mom and I had a nice long talk about my weight loss and I went to a Weight Watchers Meeting with a friend of mine on Saturday morning. (If anyone had any qualms about how unmotivated I am, I woke up at 7am to be ready for the 8:30 meeting – I normally wake up at 11am) So I signed up for Weight Watchers today, after feeling really motivated about everything and this weekend I took some time to realize how much I eat in a day, which is a lot.

On Saturday, I noticed I actually consume a lot of food, both in calories (I’m sure) and in reality (because we’re not going to count calories) On Saturday, I ate an entire large cheese pizza on my own. Because I was hungry and I knew that I could do it.

That terrifies me.

I wasn’t realizing how much that I could eat until recently. I could easily eat two meals from McDonalds or Chick-fil-a and just be fine after, because one couldn’t fill me. And you know it’s fine when your boyfriend says it because he’s maybe 140 pounds and he’s pretty thin.

So, today, I start. And today, I got up and I worked out. And it was great, because I knew that I could have actually done it. However, it was really hard. Because I was trying my best to stay positive.

Like, “Okay, I’m almost half way there, I can do this”. But, it probably didn’t help that the person next to me was watching the election, and I was bored.

Tomorrow is my first meeting, and while I’m nervous, I’m also excited about it, because while the journey is going to be tough, I can do it. I’m just surprised that I wasn’t aware of the state that I put my body in.

And I want to be healthy. It really isn’t just about losing weight, it’s about being able to live longer so my boyfriend and I can enjoy each other’s company for longer. And so I can be on this earth longer.



Reality Check

Whenever everything is seeming just okay, always make sure that reality doesn’t sneak up on you. Because when it does, sometimes it just hits you, and you wonder why you forgot about thinking about this and that.

I called my mom today, and we actually had a long talk on the phone, which made me really emotional. We discussed my weight, which I’m pretty close to 300 pounds at this point (give or take 25 pounds) but still close to it.

So, while it was highly emotional, and something that I didn’t even see coming, I can’t get mad at her, because she’s just doing it because she’s worried about me. I mean, she lives in New York, and I live in Oklahoma. I know that she just wants us (as in my other siblings) to live a long, healthy, and good life so we can be together for as long as we can be.

Though, as I type this up, it scares me that I could be killing myself, because I do want to live a long life, but when you get so wrapped up in daily things, you just forget about it. I do want to get married, settle down, and maybe have a child or forty dogs.

So I need to think about how my health can be affected, and I’m glad she said something, as I stated. I just didn’t think that I would get so emotional and teary about it. Which I guess just means that it is important to me as well.

When we disconnected, she was so worried that I would have been pissed, because like I stated in my last post, she did ride my butt about my weight a lot in my youth. But maybe because I’m more of an adult, I can see that she did that because she cares about me and she wants me to be healthy and happy. It’s not just about looking good and being a size 2 or whatever.

So, tomorrow I’m going to call her, and I think I may start weight watchers, because it’s worked for people I know and people that she knows. My friend Christine (the one I did the 5K with) is actually a member and said that she’ll take me to a meeting. Which I’m so thankful for, because I am worried that I won’t get along with other people and I know that it’s social anxiety speaking, but I know that I’m strong and confident when all of that negative melts away.

And it would be nice to actually slim down. I love the stores that I talked about in my last post, but I’ve always wanted to be thinner so I wouldn’t have to worry about shopping in the plus sized section. So maybe it’s time.

I finished my bachelor’s degree, and I’m in the process of applying for graduate programs, I can totally do this, and probably be great at it. Thus, my goal for starting (which may change in the future) is to lose one pound a week. And actually go the gym.

I think it will help because I know once the weight sheds off, I can probably see things more positive and look at the world in a cheery light, versus looking at something so negatively. Because, I’m human and I do that sometimes.

But I think I’m ready. I’ll update it further along, but if I can keep doing this by writing a post a day, then I can really do anything. It’s all about habit and routine. And why not do it while I’m still young before I really mess things up with my body?

Also, image is not mine, but any oceanic or mountain view is very pleasing to my eye, so sorry if it seems that I only like landscapes, but I think that the world is beautiful, even if some people are not.



Unfinished projects

Seriously, I have so many of them.

I am working three blankets, two scarfs, and three shawls.

I told myself that when I was done with college, I could finally start on all the stuff that I was missing out on. But obviously it seems that once you’ve gotten your degree, there really is no such as free time. (I type as I’m watching anime and typing this out).

Truthfully, I am busy. I work 2 part time jobs, and I’m trying to get a third. I make decent money, but I want to make more so I can save instead of just spend. (Even though I have this wonderful habit of buying things I want if I have the money for it.) [<– The wonderful part is completely sarcastic, if you didn’t pick up on it.]

Also, in my free time (since it’s Halloween time) I’ve been trying to play Guild Wars 2’s Halloween events, because it’s my third year.

However, if I get this other job, I won’t have much time to do my hobbies, but never the less, I think it would be good to have some extra income in. Or I could just sell my blankets and things online, but I’m afraid people would hate them.