Weight loss

For as long as I can remember, I’ve always felt like I was overweight. Mind you, I’m 24 years old, so this includes over a decade of feeling.

I don’t know if it’s because I was never satisfied with how I look or if I just conformed to society’s views. Whatever the cause,it has always haunted me.

I wish that I could lie to the scale and make it say a magical number that would make me happy, but I’m also terrified that if I got down to that weight, I wouldn’t be happy.

It’s not that I don’t exercise or eat right, but it probably has to do with the fact that I don’t have a consistent eating/sleeping schedule. But, at this point in my life, I don’t know if that would help.

My weeks are hectic, because I’m always waking up at different times. On Saturday’s I have to be at work at 9:30am so I wake up around 8:30 so I can get up and do makeup and everything else. Sunday’s I work 12hours from 11:00am to 11:00pm, and that’s when I’m at work.Mondays I don’t have to be at work until 2:30 so I like to sleep in to around 10:00am because I’ll be at work until 10:00pm. Not to mention that Friday is my only day “off” and most of the time I don’t use it to relax because I’m running errands for others or I’m on call.

That long paragraph wasn’t me complaining, I’m just trying to show that I don’t have a consistent schedule. That, and I’m working two jobs, and trying to get on to another, because bills don’t pay themselves.

Anyways, back on topic.

Even with me working out everyday, which includes cardio after I wake up, I’m still not dropping weight, which makes me think that I’ll be forever stuck at a size 18, and with a double chin.

Life goal wise, I want to lose the Weight because I want to be down to at least a 10 or 12. I know it’s possible, but maybe I need to restructure my life so I have a “normal” schedule.

Anyways, I’m an adult and I want to have realistic expectations about my life and I really want to be able to achieve my dreams and goals.

Thanks,

Kay

Personality Types

Because I identify as an ambivert, I place both an extroverted and introverted personality type, i.e., the Myers-Briggs personality placements or indicators. And according to Google, the definition of an ambivert, is:

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My major in college was General Studies and in one of my courses, we needed to take the Myers-Briggs test so our teacher could understand how to help us in our intellectual ways. (Like with homework, and how to improve our test questions) So naturally, it was difficult for me to choose which “side” of me to identify with, but if I separated them, I cam up with the same two results: ISTP  and ENTP. Of course, if you don’t know what those two mean, then those are just acronyms for something that you could be totally unsure of. So, let’s begin with my introverted side:

ISTP

ISTP pretty much stands for: Introverted Sensing Thinking Perception, and are known as the the virtuoso. Each personality has their own name, and each of them have different traits regarding their personalities. So, for example, it could be said that ISTPs (i.e. my introverted side) love to explore with their hands and their eyes, touching and examining the world around them with cool rationalism and spirited curiosity. (I will NOT touch you) People with this personality type are natural Makers, moving from project to project, building the useful and the superfluous for the fun of it, and learning from their environment as they go. (I love to write and I will flip from project to project, like I do when I crochet) Often mechanics and engineers, ISTPs find no greater joy than in getting their hands dirty pulling things apart and putting them back together, just a little bit better than they were before. (I do not do this) 

Weaknesses:

Now these are the ones that are partial to me, not to all ISTPs:

  • Stubborn
  • Easily Bored
  • Risky Behavior

Strengths:

  • Relaxed
  • Creative and Rational
  • Optimistic and Energetic

ENTP:

Now this is my ultimate super socialized form, that if you see me in a social setting, I am this person, and it scares people. The ENTP personality type is the ultimate devil’s advocate, thriving on the process of shredding arguments and beliefs and letting the ribbons drift in the wind for all to see. (yes, this is me) Unlike their more determined Judging (J) counterparts, ENTPs don’t do this because they are trying to achieve some deeper purpose or strategic goal, but for the simple reason that it’s fun. (Yes again, me) No one loves the process of mental sparring more than ENTPs, as it gives them a chance to exercise their effortlessly quick wit, broad accumulated knowledge base, and capacity for connecting disparate ideas to prove their points.(Seriously, I love this side of me, but it’s hard to maintain it)

Weaknesses:

  • Very Argumentative
  • Insensitive
  • Intolerant
  • Can Find It Difficult to Focus
  • Dislike Practical Matters

Strengths:

  • Knowledgeable
  • Quick Thinkers
  • Original
  • Charismatic

All in all, while these two personality types help define me as a person. And while I may seem like an asshole, why not be true to yourself?

Thanks for even looking at this,

Kay

Welcome mat

Hello, and welcome to my creative space. I’m not too sure on the domain name, so we’ll see how long it lasts.

My name is Mary-Kate but I also go by Kay. I love my name, but it’s a mouthful and Kay just smooths off the tongue more you know?

As a child, my family was well traveled so I’ve seen the world at a young age. I was born on the East Coast but for now I live in the Midwest. While I hope to reunite with my family in the future, it’s best to see where life will take me.

I am a recent graduate and therefore I hold a bachelor’s degree, even if I’m not currently using it. My bachelor’s degree was in General Sociology which I felt opened more doors than if I would have graduated with a General Studies degree.

I am an ambivert which means I am both introverted and extroverted. For example, I am very extroverted when I am at work for I work in public services, where I need to be extroverted. But when I get home, very few things or individuals will encourage me to leave my space.

Some may argue and say that just because I’m at work doesn’t mean that I’m extroverted, but I can also be energized by the people around me when I’m out and about. When I go to the mall, for example, I love to interact with people, but when I’m at home with my boyfriend, I probably won’t leave home unless I really need to.

Now for the other half of it, I can be really nice, kind, but at the same time, I have a slight sass attitude. It’s never personal, I just feel that it sometimes slips out. But then again, sometimes I’m intentionally sassy to people.

Anyways, if you stuck through to the end of this post, thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this. Also if the grammar is horrible, I’m typing this out on my phone as I deal with sleep deprivation because of my car.

Thanks,

Kay